Well, I went to the doctor yesterday. Passed out doing bloodwork. Ya know, it never gets less embarrassing the more I do it. You'd think I'd be used to it, but nope. I'm still mortified when I wake up in some random stranger's arms or have nurses fanning me trying to wake me up.
I'm learning a lot about love through all of this. That it comes in very different forms. I'm great at giving love, not so much receiving it. I'm in love with my Heavenly Father. I love my family, my friends, my community. But something happens when I need to receive love. I'm not used to it. My life has been spent with pretty much just God and I. Which I'm perfectly fine with. I love being in a relationship with Him. It takes effort though. I've got to work at it at times. Sometimes it's juggling my responsibilities so I can spend time with Him, but its always, always worth it. Through all this hairy medical stuff, He's teaching me to let myself be loved by the people around me. It's hard. Laying down my pride and humbling myself to lay my weakness out there takes courage. I'm a slow learner with this love lesson, but I'm getting it.
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
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I'm still out here, reading, but you and God have got it so together that it's hard to find something to comment about. :) ec
Mr. Eddie!!
I'd been wondering about you. I'm still pleased as punch to know you are walking with me. Even if its as a silent participant. ;)
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