Enough Fluff

My friend, Jake, recently posted on his blog about evangelism. I replied that I don't do it enough and so hopefully this is me practicing what I preach. The dilemma is how personal do I go with this? Do I just tell you about my job, the Ring, my friends, my family? Or do I talk about my personal walk with Jesus Christ? The mere thought of being so vulnerable makes me want to run and hide.

I'm great at running. Not the track and field kind. The "avoid getting too close to people" kind of running. Having been raised in church, I was taught that I was to be strong and not let people know if I was hurting or not. Any type of softness is a sign of being weak. I was never told that in so many words, that is just what I have walked away with.

After two years at the Ring, I've come to an ephiphany of sorts. That whole misconception about being soft equals weak is a load of crap. Jesus Christ was many things. I personally would not put the word weak anywhere near a description of Him. And as His daughter, yes, I'm a warrior. I'm to put on the full armor of God every day. But I'm also called to love and serve and be gentle and kind. I can't do that without opening up to people and as an end result, being vulnerable. I'm having a hard time with that at the moment. Don't get me wrong, I love to love on people. I just don't take many risks when it comes to love. I'd much rather bolt than take a chance. The kicker is that God did not call us to be chickens. Love is risky. Love is scary. Love hurts sometimes. God has put people in my path that I can take a risk on and love. And yes, they might not love me back. I might get my feelings hurt. I might get pushed away. But I also might make relationships that will have an eternal effect. Can I take that risk? Will I choose to take that risk? God took a big risk on me when He sent His only Son for me. It's my choice to love Him. That's the beauty of free will. What will you do with that choice?