I travel a lot with my job. It's all Louisiana roads so I have a lot of time on my hands when I'm driving. Things I do on the road include text messaging (not a good idea and yet I still do it), singing at the top of my lungs (I'm pretty sure I'm tone deaf), and quiet time with God (my favorite). If you know me, I'm a little bit in love with Steven Curtis Chapman. So I was listening to one of his CDs and Whatever came on. Here are some of the lyrics:
"I made a list, wrote down from A to Z All the ways I thought that You could best use me Told all my strengths and my abilities I formed a plan it seemed to make good sense I laid it out for You so sure You'd be convinced I made my case, presented my defense But then I read the letter that You sent me It said that all You really want from me is just Whatever, whatever You say Whatever, I will obey Whatever, Lord, have Your way 'Cause You are my God, whatever"
This song is so like me. I have the irritating habit of picking and choosing what I'll trust God with in my life. And half the time I don't just sit there and trust Him, I mettle. I truly desire His will, and yet I have trouble just letting Him have total and complete control. What audacity to think the Lord of the Universe needs my help. Delayed obedience is still disobedience, so I'm taking it a day at a time trusting Him with every facet of my life. I'm learning but its a slow process. In this world of "I want it now" God tells me to chill. The One who romances me, fights for me, claims me as His, and loves me more than I can comprehend, knows where my life will lead. Its just a question of how hard I want to make it on myself. Let's hear it for the slow learners.....
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6 comments:
Ouch - you hit me hard with that one! Almost exactly the discussion He and I had just the other night. ec
You are learning all the time, my friend. From one slow learner to the other, His timeline and mine are vastly different. I'm learning to trust Him, but I catch myself every now and then trying to hurry Him up... then He gently reminds me (or with a smack to the back of the head - whatever is needed...) that when I force my timeline and take the driver's seat again, things get really messy in a hurry.
There are lyrics circling in the back of my mind... "I never want to go back to my old life..." So I will wait on Him. This season of waiting is full of amazing things He shows me everyday about Him, about myself and about my community.
He amazes me every day. I would not change that for anything, including getting things my way, in my time. I choose to trust.
I'm from the north so you knew I was going to be a slow learner, ice and snow and all that. I think the process He takes us through is awesome. It is slow for a reason, and I don't mean in the "God likes to make me suffer" kinda way. He could give us the knowledge we need and everything would be cool but what would we learn? We don't just gain knowledge but the experiences we have while obtaining it grant us the wisdom to use that knowledge how He wants us to. Plus, the process is a beautiful way He shows me how involved He wants to be in my life. I get to spend a lot of qt with my LORD. Wicked awesome!
Hi Mr. Eddie!
I'm not sure if I should apologize for what I've written or just empathize. I'll go with option two. Its nice to know that I'm not alone in this transition and that God's working with all of us. Its a neverending process for me, that much I'm sure of.
By the way, have we met?
We have not met that I am aware of, I was just blog surfing a short while back and found your post. Keep up the good work. ec
Hey Mr. Eddie,
I'm glad you found it and enjoy the randomness that is my life. Keep reading and posting if it suits your fancy. ;)
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