If my life were a tv show, it would be a soap opera. Which is pretty terrible because I hate those things. Drama everywhere, twists and turns that are completely ridiculous and never ending. Lately the wish I wish for me, quite selfishly, is that I don't have any drama anymore. People who are hurt by me or others, or situations that the silver lining seems to be too cleverly hidden for me to see.
I'm reading this book called Life Together by Dietrich Bonhoeffer. Right now he's talking about the life of Jesus. How He spent the majority of His time in the midst of His enemies. I guess I'd never thought of it like that. I always liked the stories of Him kicking a and taking names with love and compassion, but it never occurred to me how hard that must have been. For Him, as well as His followers. To rarely have a moments' peace. Constantly showing them how to live and love and sometimes being completely misunderstood by everyone...
I'm not Jesus. I walk beside and belong to a community of believers. People who will pick me up and dust me off when I fall, or set me straight with kindness and maturity because they love me. Hopefully in turn our relationship is grounded in Him so I can do the same. Yeah, life is hard. Especially when you live in a world where your enemy is closer than you think and certainly more cunning than I give him credit for...
That being said. Dang it, I'm going to be joyful if it kills me. That doesn't mean that I'm happy 24-7, I think joyful for me means being at peace, not just ok, with what is going on. He's got everything completely in His hand. And I'm leaving it there. All of it. Yeah, I get tired of heartache, betrayal, rejection, manipulation, and the just plain stupid crap that goes on. Who doesn't? But after decades of walking with Him, I'm hoping I've learned a little. Give up. Give it to Him, trust Him that He knows better than I do, and love like there's no tomorrow...
I'm reading this book called Life Together by Dietrich Bonhoeffer. Right now he's talking about the life of Jesus. How He spent the majority of His time in the midst of His enemies. I guess I'd never thought of it like that. I always liked the stories of Him kicking a and taking names with love and compassion, but it never occurred to me how hard that must have been. For Him, as well as His followers. To rarely have a moments' peace. Constantly showing them how to live and love and sometimes being completely misunderstood by everyone...
I'm not Jesus. I walk beside and belong to a community of believers. People who will pick me up and dust me off when I fall, or set me straight with kindness and maturity because they love me. Hopefully in turn our relationship is grounded in Him so I can do the same. Yeah, life is hard. Especially when you live in a world where your enemy is closer than you think and certainly more cunning than I give him credit for...
That being said. Dang it, I'm going to be joyful if it kills me. That doesn't mean that I'm happy 24-7, I think joyful for me means being at peace, not just ok, with what is going on. He's got everything completely in His hand. And I'm leaving it there. All of it. Yeah, I get tired of heartache, betrayal, rejection, manipulation, and the just plain stupid crap that goes on. Who doesn't? But after decades of walking with Him, I'm hoping I've learned a little. Give up. Give it to Him, trust Him that He knows better than I do, and love like there's no tomorrow...
9Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. 10Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers.
Galations 6:9-10
Galations 6:9-10
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