Why My God Reigns

I am basking in His awesomeness.

So I've been open with my family and friends, yes this includes you, about my options to move or not to move. And trying to discern God's voice in this process. For those of you who know I'm not going anywhere, crack jokes to help me lighten up, think moving might be a good idea for me, or hate the thought of me leaving, I applaud your openness and honesty with me. I love you too.

Monday afternoon I was talking to my mother. She had just said she was mailing me stamps to mail out my resumes. I replied, Mom, I'm praying about this. And I'd really appreciate it if God tells me to stay put that you don't pitch a fit. She said, well, you can come back to Texas and find a church here. You could meet somebody. I just want some companionship for you.

I'm beginning to understand its hard for my parents for me to be 25 (almost, gulp) and unmarried. Sure I would like romantic companionship but in His time, not mine or my parents. I'm a single girl living in a big city that has gone through a major disaster. In their eyes, I'm alone here. It would comfort them if I was in Texas. Not even McCamey where they live, just Texas. My mother's big selling point is that I could find a church to serve there and a community that I can be a part of. The kicker is that I have that here, the only difference being that its not in Texas.

Yesterday afternoon I was talking to my sister about my mom advising me to move. She then started campaigning for me to move to Florida. I replied, you know, I'd really like for my family to be thrilled that I'm extremely happy here. I'd like you and mom and dad to support me and just leave it at that. I'm loved here, I love being here. No, I'm not married. But I'm loving on the people that God has brought into my life. I'm part of a church that wants me here just as much as I want to be here. As for a man in my life, I know I'm going to be a wife. He just hasn't told me when, and I'm ok with Him keeping His surprises up His sleeve. I might be a control freak, but I do love when He wows me. Sometimes He tells me what the finished product is going to be, and I'm always amazed at how He makes it happen. But He's never normal in the way He does things and I love that about Him.

Ok, enough backstory. This morning, I'm awake in bed saying good morning to Him and just thanking Him for everything He's doing. Lately my quiet time, which is more often me asking what's going on than anything else, has turned into all I can do is just praise Him and thank Him for the many great things He's doing in the lives of the people I care about.

Then He tells me to open up His word. Ok, God, no problem. Whatdya wanna tell me? I open it up and its Jeremiah 42. My eyes land on verse 4.

4"I have heard you," replied Jeremiah the prophet. "I will certainly pray to the LORD your God as you have requested; I will tell you everything the LORD says and will keep nothing back from you." 5 Then they said to Jeremiah, "May the LORD be a true and faithful witness against us if we do not act in accordance with everything the LORD your God sends you to tell us. 6 Whether it is favorable or unfavorable, we will obey the LORD our God, to whom we are sending you, so that it will go well with us, for we will obey the LORD our God."

(At this point I'm like ok, what are you telling me? How does this apply in my life? He says, zip it and keep reading, so I do.)

7 Ten days later the word of the LORD came to Jeremiah. 8 So he called together Johanan son of Kareah and all the army officers who were with him and all the people from the least to the greatest. 9 He said to them, "This is what the LORD, the God of Israel, to whom you sent me to present your petition, says: 10 'If you stay in this land, I will build you up and not tear you down; I will plant you and not uproot you, for I am grieved over the disaster I have inflicted on you. 11 Do not be afraid of the king of Babylon, whom you now fear. Do not be afraid of him, declares the LORD, for I am with you and will save you and deliver you from his hands. 12 I will show you compassion so that he will have compassion on you and restore you to your land.'

13 "However, if you say, 'We will not stay in this land,' and so disobey the LORD your God, 14 and if you say, 'No, we will go and live in Egypt, where we will not see war or hear the trumpet or be hungry for bread,' 15 then hear the word of the LORD, O remnant of Judah. This is what the LORD Almighty, the God of Israel, says: 'If you are determined to go to Egypt and you do go to settle there, 16 then the sword you fear will overtake you there, and the famine you dread will follow you into Egypt, and there you will die.

At this point I had to stop for a second for a tissue cuz my eyes were teary. I can't help it sometimes. He's just so...so....well, He's just so tender with my heart. So after tearing up in thankfulness of how He cares for me and is still very much involved in my life, I sat and pondered what He'd just told me. Here's what I walked away with. He's letting me choose. I can stay here where I'm at and He will plant me even more so than He already has. Or if I'm determined to go back to the land of my fathers, Texas, I can go. But it's my choice.

Just wanted you to know. (Sorry blogliners the typo was driving me crazy!)