Sometimes I don't believe the things I am told. Either by friends, or coworkers, or even God Almighty. I just don't believe Him sometimes. He'll whisper in my ear, or shout it from the rooftops and I'll just shrug Him off. I'll grudgingly acquiesce to whatever He's telling me, and a lot of the times I let it go in one ear and out the other. I believe more in the lie that I'm a loser, then the forever truth that He's made me a victor. I think that comes from years of relying on "feelings" instead of what I know in my head and heart to be God's truth.
But something is different about this time. Maybe I'm starting to believe Him. Maybe I'm realizing that that mustard seed isn't the size of the grand canyon. Maybe He could show off big time if I'll just let Him. Maybe I could persistently remind Him of His promise to keep, nay PLANT, me here. And in reminding Him to keep His promise, it's growing me and helping me trust Him and His ways of taking care and providing for me.
Maybe...Gosh, I hope I'm a girl who is courageous enough to believe in maybes.
2 comments:
I have been reading your writings and many of the same thoughts have danced across my consciousness also, especially those in this post. Sometimes I believe, sometimes I doubt and sometimes I just flat don't believe but the thing that blows me away is that He loves me anyway. I personally wouldn't put up with someone like me - but He loves me - wow! ec
Mr. Eddie,
I wouldn't put up with me either. And I'm amazed He loves me too! Me, the very uncool girl who sighs just at the very thought of Him.
Yesterday He made me smile. Months ago He said He would plant me, so I mentioned it in this post. Then last night at cg, the discussion was about trees. The whole planting thing seems to be a theme in my life right now.
I love when He reminds me of His promises. His reminders end up encouraging me to nag Him even more to continue wowing me in my life... ;)
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