Hungry

Hungry, I come to You for I know/You satisfy I am empty, but I know Your love does not run dry/And so I wait for You so I wait for You I'm falling on my knees//Offering all of me Jesus, You're all this heart is living for//Broken, I run to You for Your arms are open wide/I am weary, but I know Your touch restores my life/And so I wait for You so I wait for You.

In all the drama that is swirling around me, I've not run away. I've not left the Ring. Don't get me wrong, I've been getting slammed lately. Heh, look at this past month's posts. Heartache and tears. Struggle, fights, confusion, worry. And throughout all of it, my King still wants me. I'm weary and broken and He still wants me!! What a thought. I know what He wants me to do. I'm to trust and wait. The life I want I already have, I just get lost in the mire. My favorite book of all time is Pilgrim's Progress by John Bunyan. It's a story about a guy named Christian. There's a picture in one of the books I have of Christian in the Slough of Despond. He's absolutely covered in mud, trudging through the mire, the mud pulling at his clothes and his face contorted with the effort of walking through it with his burden on his back. And then a guy named Help comes along...

Wherefore Christian was left to tumble in the Slough of Despond alone; but still he endeavored to struggle to that side of the slough that was farthest from his own house, and next to the wicket-gate; the which he did, but could not get out because of the burden that was upon his back: but I beheld in my dream, that a man came to him, whose name was Help, and asked him what he did there.

CHRISTIAN: Sir, said Christian, I was bid to go this way by a man called Evangelist, who directed me also to yonder gate, that I might escape the wrath to come. And as I was going thither, I fell in here.

HELP: But why did not you look for the steps?

CHRISTIAN: Fear followed me so hard that I fled the next way, and fell in.

HELP: Then said he, Give me thing hand: so he gave him his hand, and he drew him out, Psalm 40:2, and he set him upon sound ground, and bid him go on his way.

So I'm exhausted, I'm weary, and I'm broken. But I'm His. And though it absolutely drives me crazy to not know what is around the corner for me, I'll still trust Him and wait for Him. He's my love, and I will trust Him and wait.

Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. James 1:4 NIV.