His Promise is Sitting Next to Me?

God showed up this evening. He did, really. Tonight at the ring, T talked about living life abundantly. He started off talking about how when we talk about living life to the fullest, its always happy stuff. Carpe diem. Seize the day. Breathe deep. Taste every ounce of your friendships. Stop and smell the roses. Live the moments you're involved in.

But life isn't always happy. And yet God has given me the resources to live abundantly. It's Him. He is the never-ending resource for living my abundant life. That doesn't mean I'm always smiling or that life will always be a piece of pie. But God is still there with me, no matter what my days look like. Rainy days, weeks, and months go by, but that doesn't mean the sun isn't there.

Towards the end of his message, T talked about God fulfilling His promises. He said the fulfillment of His promise might be sitting next to you. Then he mentioned a quote by a guy named Larry Crabb.

"Trusting God is risky business unless you're trusting Him to fulfill His promises."

Am I trusting God to fulfill His promises in my life? Heh, it depends on what time you ask me. The romantic girl in me says absolutely without a doubt I trust Him. But then real life slams into me, or doubt whispers in my ear and the science nerd in me starts looking at the facts. And I become unsure that I'm in the center of His will. Every time I get to the point where I'm about to seriously lose it, God sits me down, tells me to breathe a bit, and trust Him. I keep asking that His desires are my desires and I have the feeling sometimes He wants to just shake me. Not in a bad way, more of a remember who you are way. I'm His. And I'm also a saint who sins. And no matter how many times I mess up or think I mess up, God still is right there. Waiting on me to let Him fulfill His best for my life.

Alright God, no more waiting. I'm Yours to do with what You will. By the way, thank You for the reminder this evening. I'm stubborn and You're patient to a fault.