Eh, Put It On My Tab

Give me a few days and then you can laugh at me for this...

Today I did something I've never done before. At the ripe old age of 24, I've stopped payment on a check. (Insert horrific gasp or guffaw here.) And it's not a fun experience for me. I'm responsible, I know how to do math. Ok, so calculus 3 makes me scratch my head, but basic adding and subtracting I know how to do. Or so I thought.

The backstory behind this check is that I write it always after the 15th. It's the first check I write. It's my priority. Last month the person who signs our checks went on vacation and ever since then our mileage reimbursement checks have been off by a few weeks. I stayed on my regular schedule instead of changing it thinking I could cover it, but I can't. So I'm juggling everything around and that takes off a big chunk of my aforementioned check. There's only one option for this check. Stop it. The money's not there. So its going to the one place I'm hoping there's more grace and less judgment than I'm expecting.

I could try blaming it on my job, but it's my responsibility. I thought I'd get my check yesterday and it didn't come in the mail. If I just would've waited till next week I could have covered it. But I didn't want my job stress to filter in to this priority in my life. So I clung to my pride, wrote the check and am now humbling myself for it.

My sister laughed and said I know you think this is the end of the world, but it's really not. I'm just so disappointed in myself. God's grace is big enough to cover bounced checks, right?

Timing has never been my forte...